A Way to be Less Afraid (1 of 2)

Breaking Out: Zudaeshi promises Mulsae a taste of Hanna, but Hanna insists things are done on her terms

'Breaking Out' Content Warning: Erotic Political Horror

This story contains scenes of graphic violence, coercion, dubiously consensual intimacy, psychological manipulation, and entrenched power imbalances.

It explores the machinery of systemic control, the ethics of survival under tyranny, and the slow unraveling of truth and identity amid rebellion. Expect disturbing content, morally conflicted characters, and moments where the line between love and loyalty becomes a weapon.

Proceed with care.

13th day of the 7th moon
1162 HC

"All this time, and you haven't had a taste of her yet," Zudaeshi coos, "How long has it been now?"

"Ten days, Your Radiance," Mulsae answers softly.

"I see you're counting the days," she smiles, "It must be agony being with her all day every day and have your cock caged and useless." She's languidly stroking his cock while his arms and legs are spread and tied to the bed. She's already used him. His bruises are blooming.

"It's been... a new experience, Your Radiance," he tries to deflect.

"You've done a good job with her. She's ready for Garrick. I have Rhydros scouting Mountain Sanctum preparing to sack it, so he'll be here soon." She strokes him more earnestly.

"I think you deserve a reward," she purrs, breath brushing his ear, "Wouldn't you like to taste her at last?" Her grip tightens and he tilts his head back and bucks. "Yes, you do want to taste her. Look at you, just the thought of it has you squirming." She squeezes and he bucks. It's discomfort, not pleasure.

"Just think of it, Mulsae." No. "Think of how nice it will be to slide your cock into her wet and warm cunt." The thought goes through his head and he likes it. Just fucking someone else for a change. Having his cock in someone who isn't Zudaeshi. Someone he's controlling. Someone he's dominating.

"Look at you, panting away." She strokes faster. He screws his eyes shut. No no no. It's wrong. I shouldn't want that.

"Just imagine her in that collar, and you're holding her leash, pulling her head back while you take her from behind." Oh gods yes, that would be great. He bucks rhythmically into her hand. "She's just limp and helpless, wriggling from your thrusts." Yes yes yes yes yes.

"Trembling. Whimpering. Begging for more. She is enjoying your cock so much that she comes undone and screaming your name." Oh gods yes. He pictures Hanna shattering on his cock. That image shreds through him like glass. And then his own cum spurts from him and lands on his chest in rhythmic pulses.

Zudaeshi lets go of him and he pants heavily as he comes down from his high. He feels rotten. Terrible. He shouldn't like that so much. He shouldn't want that.

She runs her nails through the seed on his chest, "You do want that. I think you've earned it, Mulsae." She sits up and looks down at him with a warm smile. "Tomorrow. I'll let you have her tomorrow."

She crawls off the bed and walks nude over to Hanna and crouches before her. She runs a nail down her cheek. "You'll be his reward." Hanna's body doesn't move. But her eyes shift, darting to Mulsae, then to the bed, then to the ropes.

She rises and walks over to the bathing chamber. "I'm done with you. Hanna, untie Mulsae and get out." She disappears behind the door, and silence swells in her absence.

Hanna doesn't move right away. She stares at Mulsae, lips parted. Breathing too fast. Then, slowly, she crawls forward.

Her fingers fumble at the knots. Her hands are shaking. Mulsae can't bear to look at her. But then he does and sees it. Not just terror. Realization. She isn't trembling from confusion anymore. She's trembling because she understands.

~*~

14th day of the 7th moon, 1162 HC

Mulsae wakes with Hanna much closer than normal. He feels her breath on his shoulder. He's surprised because after what she heard from Zudaeshi last night, she's been silent and withdrawn. She went straight to sleep without reading to them nor saying good night with a tap on their heads.

He opens and peeks at her from the corner of his eyes. She's staring wide eyed at him. He carefully rolls to his side to face her while minimizing disturbing Damion's sleep.

Is something wrong? Mulsae asks mentally to keep quiet.

Yes. Her response is small. Faint.

Do you want to talk about it?

Yes. He waits for her. Her heart rate quickens. Her eyes flick down to her fingers worrying a thread. But she doesn't say anything.

Is it about what Zudaeshi said last night?

Yes. I don't want to be helpless again, she says without looking up.

It's really scary.

It is.

I wish I could make it less scary for you. His heart sinks.

I think you can.

He furrows his brow. How?

Can you teach me? She flicks her eyes up to his then back to her fingers. I think if I had some experience, had a better idea what is happening, that it will be less scary.

Yes, I can see how understanding what's happening would make it a bit less scary.

Like... I don't know what that thing is that you keep putting over your cock.

He swallows. It's a cage. To prevent me from using it. Zudaeshi wants me limited to her only. It's enchanted so she's the only one who can remove it.

Her eyes widen. That is horrid. Gods, in a place like this I want to masturbate whenever I get a moment alone in order to keep my mind off things.

He huffs a light laugh. Yes. True. Well. Damion and I have... other methods to keep our minds off things.

What is the nature of your relationship? You two are... intimate?

Yes. We're... companions. We share everything with each other. We haven't promised ourselves to each other or anything. We just share our lives closely while we're walking the same path together.

Does Damion have a cage on him?

No. She only needs one of us leashed. He... She keeps for comfort.

Comfort?

She likes to pet him when She's stressed.

Now Hanna huffs a light laugh. Pet him?

Mulsae tries to quietly snicker. It is pretty funny. She'll crouch down next to him and run Her fingers through his hair while complaining.

"What's with all the giggling over there?" Damion's voice breaks the silence.

"She pets you," Hanna giggles.

Damion groans, "Yes. She plays with my hair and bitches," his voice turns low and serious, "It could be a lot worse."

She sits up to look both of them in the eyes, "It can be worse. And she wants it to be worse for me. And I'm really scared." Her lip trembles, "And I want you to help me be less scared."

Damion sits up, "Of course. Anything."

She takes a deep trembling breath. "I'm nervous about having sex. The girls say that it hurts the first time. So, I want to get that over with." Damion's eyes widen. He shifts his gaze to Mulsae then back to Hanna.

"Plus what She says she wants done to me is not... normal," she straightens her back as well as her resolve, "I want to experience it first where I am in a situation that I can control."

Damion clears his throat. "You... want to have sex... with us."

"Well. You. Mulsae is caged."

"With... me." His eyes dart back and forth while he rubs the back of his neck. Damion is frozen still, the whites of his eyes fully exposed. His throat bobs. "I, uh, " he finally exhales, "Sorry. Just... surprised."

"I'm sorry if that's too much to ask," she turns bright red, "I just thought it'd be less scary if I had a better idea what is happening." Her shoulders sink and she looks at her fingers picking at the fabric of the blanket.

Damion swallows. Licks his lips. "I just... I don't want to do anything to scare you."

"I'm scared already," she sighs heavily, "I'm trying to find a way to be less scared."

"I see. Then. Okay," Damion says carefully, "Whatever you want. At your speed. You have permission to do what you would like with me."

"How should we do it?" She asks. They stay frozen having no idea how to take the next step.

Hanna eventually sits up carefully. She slowly gets out of the bed and walks around to the other side and sits next to Damion. She swallows. "Does the first time have to hurt?" she asks.

His throat bobs as he swallows, "I know how to do it to minimize discomfort. But," he looks to Mulsea and back to Hanna, "It takes time and Zudaeshi gets impatient. In that case it doesn't matter if it's the first time of one hundredth time. It'll be uncomfortable or hurt."

She nods while she ponders. She casts her gaze from Mulsae, to Damion, back to her hands. She then says almost imperceptibly, "Can we try it your way?" Mulsae's heart jumps into his throat. Damion's stress is rippling off him. They stay stock still.

"I... I want to help reduce your fear. But," Damion looks up at the ceiling and back down to the floor, "I'm afraid of hurting you."

She places her hand on Damion and looks into his eyes, "She's going to hurt me. I'm trying to find out how to hurt less." Damion takes a shuddering breath.

"Okay, I understand," Damion fidgets, "I need you to be very clear with me about how you feel. You can say stop at any time. I will listen and obey everything you say. Do you understand?"

She nods. The three sit paralyzed. Hanna worries a fold of fabric between her fingers. "Tell me the whole thing, start to finish."

Damion takes a slow deep breath and exhales equally as slowly. "The best way to do it is to first make you very relaxed and comfortable. Usually a massage." Hanna nods.

"The next step is to make you wet. Usually by gently running my fingers through your folds. Then slowly stretch you by inserting 1, 2, then 3 fingers into you." Hanna swallows but continues to nod.

"It's usually done best while also making you feel good with my mouth on you and make you cum."

"Well, I'm all for doing that." The three quietly snicker.

"Well, it's better to look forward to something than to be avoiding fear," Mulsae says.

Hanna sobers, "Yeah. Okay. I'd like to look forward to that. I want to know what that feels like."

Damion rolls some stress out of his shoulders, but he seems lighter, "Yeah, that is a much better goal to work towards."

"What happens next?"

"Once you've cum and been stretched you should be relaxed enough to be able to take a cock where it feels good."

Hanna takes a big steadying breath. "I want to try it. On my terms. In a safe environment."

Mulsae and Damion look at each other. Damion looks back to her, "I'm at your service. Tell me what you want and I'll do it."

"Start with step one? The massage?" She appears resolved. Damion nods.

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